Thursday, December 11, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Engineer-> PR professional wannabe -> analysing FILMS?????U must be kidding me!!!!!!
Done with first 2 exams of my MBA career......
Obviously after last late nite, I crashed as soon as I came to my room.... N ever since I’ve gotten up, this feeling about this something is bothering me....
Well, with the end of this semester I will have no AS classes :-(
They were primarily the reason why I attended college and had 100% attendance :-)
Neither will I have screenings!!!!!!
Well for all ma friends who do not know who AS is!!A lil backgrounder, He happens to be our GOD and RELIGION here :-)
Atleast most of ours....
He shouts at us, he is mean to us, he never lets us wear what we want to (I’m 22 yrs old and I know wat to wear!!), he calls us leeches and parasites sucking our parents blood, he does mass addressing on few people’s fault, he never let me take my assignment while I was unwell and back home L, he is too harsh on us!! BUT, that’s besides the point, he is this person, who never does anything without a reason!!He knows his stuff in and out..
Folks, one can only imagine how much of movies and their intricacies would a Software Engineer know!! N after I came here, believe me, I know all that he’s taught so well that I’m not kidding I feel like shifting to Audio Visual Production!!
He shouts at us cause we behave like animals more often than not.
He doesn’t let us wear what we want because he realised these 20+ yr “MBA graduates” do NOT have the sense of decent dressing and well I would refrain from getting into the details..
We are indeed leeches and parasites because very few here have realised the value of our parents and the amount of time , money and energy they’ve spent on us, irrespective of their status and affordability capability!!
He addresses all of us on one person’s mistake because most of our notorious acts are when we are in big number. Rightly said, most of us have developed Mob Mentality!!
N he did not let me do my assignments because there is a system that he and I and everyone here is a part of and the least we can do is RESPECT it by following it..
He is too harsh on us because he sees those Spoilt kids in most of our eyes!! But, offlate he has become so relaxed with us.
My first semester has been a bag of mixed feelings, ......FROM dislike towards certain issues in hostel, food, transport, availability, disappointment by many a faculty, from times I wondered what am I doing here after Engineering and successful and viable career options infront of me.....
TO those very thoughts of attending a AV lecture and trying to analyse different aspects of film making, to watching the old classics, to cribbing about the assignments overload to .......!!
Things are so weird now, each time I watch a movie, by default I end up seeing the lights, camera movement, scenes, sound and video coordination, etc. N now I know Filmmaking is not all about glamour and every tom, dick and harry's cup of tea but its so much hardwork and intelligent vision inclusive!!
I’m definitely going to miss not having the AV lectures, not getting to listen to those world class ripping sessions in the class!!I’m really gonna miss watching movies with 120 others in college!! And more importantly miss AS!!
:-)
:-(
Obviously after last late nite, I crashed as soon as I came to my room.... N ever since I’ve gotten up, this feeling about this something is bothering me....
Well, with the end of this semester I will have no AS classes :-(
They were primarily the reason why I attended college and had 100% attendance :-)
Neither will I have screenings!!!!!!
Well for all ma friends who do not know who AS is!!A lil backgrounder, He happens to be our GOD and RELIGION here :-)
Atleast most of ours....
He shouts at us, he is mean to us, he never lets us wear what we want to (I’m 22 yrs old and I know wat to wear!!), he calls us leeches and parasites sucking our parents blood, he does mass addressing on few people’s fault, he never let me take my assignment while I was unwell and back home L, he is too harsh on us!! BUT, that’s besides the point, he is this person, who never does anything without a reason!!He knows his stuff in and out..
Folks, one can only imagine how much of movies and their intricacies would a Software Engineer know!! N after I came here, believe me, I know all that he’s taught so well that I’m not kidding I feel like shifting to Audio Visual Production!!
He shouts at us cause we behave like animals more often than not.
He doesn’t let us wear what we want because he realised these 20+ yr “MBA graduates” do NOT have the sense of decent dressing and well I would refrain from getting into the details..
We are indeed leeches and parasites because very few here have realised the value of our parents and the amount of time , money and energy they’ve spent on us, irrespective of their status and affordability capability!!
He addresses all of us on one person’s mistake because most of our notorious acts are when we are in big number. Rightly said, most of us have developed Mob Mentality!!
N he did not let me do my assignments because there is a system that he and I and everyone here is a part of and the least we can do is RESPECT it by following it..
He is too harsh on us because he sees those Spoilt kids in most of our eyes!! But, offlate he has become so relaxed with us.
My first semester has been a bag of mixed feelings, ......FROM dislike towards certain issues in hostel, food, transport, availability, disappointment by many a faculty, from times I wondered what am I doing here after Engineering and successful and viable career options infront of me.....
TO those very thoughts of attending a AV lecture and trying to analyse different aspects of film making, to watching the old classics, to cribbing about the assignments overload to .......!!
Things are so weird now, each time I watch a movie, by default I end up seeing the lights, camera movement, scenes, sound and video coordination, etc. N now I know Filmmaking is not all about glamour and every tom, dick and harry's cup of tea but its so much hardwork and intelligent vision inclusive!!
I’m definitely going to miss not having the AV lectures, not getting to listen to those world class ripping sessions in the class!!I’m really gonna miss watching movies with 120 others in college!! And more importantly miss AS!!
:-)
:-(
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Adios Batch C4:-)
First Semester gets over!!
Happy:-) and sad:-(
Happy cuz m done with semester of hard work( Literally hard cuz i have completed close to 30 assignments successfully!) N sad, cuz m gonna miss a couple of people who will not be in my class nomore cuz we will be segregated according to our specializations..
But I’d dedicate this blog to those other 13 people from my batch I spent my last 3 months with very closely...
Well, we were divided into batches A, B, C, D when we joined SIMC and then further subdivided into 4 sub groups and I was allocated group C4.Frankly, back then it hardly made very little difference cause I knew no one. But, a week later, I began having issues because I personally thought the group was a mix of “Lallus” and the “I am the Boss” crowd. I was trying to fit in!! But, trust me you, this group is the best to have happened to me in 3 months here. Its like ur at home when its just the 14 of us..An absolutely crazy group, fights and has issues but at the end of it all is so bonded and open!!
I shall take the privilege of introducing the people to you:
Namrata Parekh aka DoubtFire: Hahahahahahaha, this woman made me pull my hair and hit my head on the walls when I first met her!! We, were given a radio assignment(GROUP) and madame happens to be an RJ(Big Ppl) and hence tried to have her say and suppress everyone else (though Nishant and Varun dint let her, hhehehehehehe). But, thats beside the point, she came across as this gal who wants to make her presence felt and I couldn’t quite stand her (Sorry for this:-)). This impression actually continued for a while. But, she turned out to be sweet and nice (Thanx to my “I don’t judge people" attitude). She is basically this overgrown kid who thinks she knows all and has to be heard!! Never lets ne1 sleep in the class cuz of her questions. There was always some or the other person she pissed, without realising!! But, of what I have known her, she is absolutely harmless and will help you whenever you need someone!!She has a dysfunctional funny bone and NAMRATA, u better treat C4 for bearing all those jokes of urs and then for EVEN laughing to make u feel good:-)
She is a sweetheart and my MAMMA PUP!!Miss gujju, I will miss u and all those love and hate sessions v’ve had :-)
Sneha Padiyath aka the Hardworker: Hmmm, Hardcore Journo!!She was the only gal in the group I knew and liked initially. One thing I admire her for his her FOCUS and dedication. She is fun and bubbly and oozing with excitement all the time. She has to know everything and makes sure she does. But, I can’t not mention her 70’s Hairbands I almost fell in love with, ROTFL(Pls don’t kill me for this)..When u try to sleep in the class and look ahead if the teacher is looking at u, all u can see is Sneha’s Hairband:-), though she looks very cute in them..
Category: Workoholic. She ensures all her assignments are done well. Sneha, I remember made this presentation in MRM class on “Women in Journalism” and quoting her “It was like she was spraying Sleeping Gas........... With each slide, one head down” was hilarious!! But trust me if I was awake I’d have loved the presentation..
She is one of the people I’m gonna genuinely miss not having in the class :-)
She is this friend I love teasing and pulling her leg..A fun person to hang out with and she has all the garam garam NEWS all the time. Way to go journo!!!!N m sorry if I hurt u in ne of those leg pulling attempts :-)
Faisal aka Dawood: This man was the ENTERTAINMENT package of C4 and people bid for him but couldn’t take him away from our batch. A typical Faisal, nevr let any of us complete the assignments because he HAD to have that world class chai after the class got over and hence refused to wait for one extra minute. His accent, for which he was acknowledged by Ananya Sir, got onto the batches nerve. But, the best part about him is, he never makes an attempt to be someone else! N thats what I admire him for. He took all our jokes in the right spirit and was a sport. He has been a sweetheart to all of us, though a lil irritating at times, he is FuN nevertheless. He can get you into trouble (BizComm Group Presentation ) and be your saviour (Biz Comm Individual presentation where I used his accent to hide my inability to talk clearly because of ulcers on my toungeJ). Faijal as I call him, is the best entertainer I have ever come across:-) I will definitely miss Faijal and his Saudi class questions:-) (As against the world class questions ppl in my class ask)
Faijal papa u rock :-)
Nishant Roy Bombarde oops Shah: His name was never spelt correctly (even now isn’t)Father Of Photoshop as we termed him!! This dude’s like a 4 year who goes to nursery and has already been taught alphabets and numbers at home..He knows most of the softwares, photography, electronic media, I wonder what he’s doing here then:-) But,a sweet guy with the KILLER combo of being a GUJJU brought up in TAMIL NADU;-)
Very focussed and all he talks about is Advertising, Advertising, Advertising and more of it..Milinda mam’s pet..Comes across as a sweet, harmless, I do my work guy. N ya, not to forget, Nishant sang “Twinkle Twinkle Lil Star” in the radio class and later he was diagonised with temperature!!:-).This one’s the typical TENSION PARTY..
The Shahrukh Khan “Baazigar” hairstyle, lean and tall with hair covering most of his face! Teetotaller, I wonder what he is doing in life. Sweet guy to hang out with. When it comes to work he is all for it and very focussed and believes in giving 100%.
Varun Ravindran aka the Sheep:-): Varun is this cute thing of our group who sings for us and dances and does the SHEEP DANCE exclusively for C4:-) He is the typical film guy and is interested in all the practicals that happen. The energy and encouragement dose for the group. He is an absolute sweetheart and tries to keep all happy. Extremely funny.
Megha Bhat aka the khakro ni ghagro: I call her Khakra Ghagra..Quiet, sweet, soft spoken and the typical “Guys mum will like” gal. She is Ok with everything and doesn’t get involved in any of the group arguments. An aspiring filmmaker..:-)Gujju gal and extremely emotional.. Peaceful and knows her stuff right!!
Niharika Kalra: KARLA..The one woman always tries to boss around(Karla, this is after common consensus and not an individual opinion :-))!!Not like any of us let her do it :-) She is the fun element of the group!! Always out with something or the other. Her confrontations with Faijal are more interesting than Cricket World Cup finals between India and Pakistan :-)
This confused soul is here for Journalsim and after comig here, her inner light is switched on and she wants to do Audio Visual Production now:-) Her new found love for camera, mics & electronic equipment are her reasons to be there. Extremely expressive, loud and on ur face. Miss Karla is of the category, Love me or Hate me, U can’t ignore me!! Punjabi from Sindh and Pune and Andamans and Vizag and Bombay and....
She is FUN and GAME for nething netime. She has some guts man!!
Neha Kejriwal: Chojen?? Nehhhh, She’s my PUP!! Cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee is the only word i can use to describe her. She is like a kid who when gets angry sits away from the group and stops talking to all of us and when no one notices, she comes back and tells us all “People I am angry with all of u all”. She is our Model for photography, video, radio, the volunteer for everything..She a sport and gets angry at the drop of a pin and is as easily convinced. My Pup is the sweetest thing around:-) Muaaaaaaaaaaah
Shweta Bathija aka the WHITEYYYYY!!: BATHIJA!!!!!My new found best friend :-) She is the best guest one can ever have :-) She is fun. She is unfortunately suffering from severe lack of Melanin:-) and hence is extraordinarily fair! She is this person who can never shout at anyone or be rude to anyone(I learnt this recently)! She is very good with her work. Creative and constructive, always has ideas and suggestions for the team :-) The deadly combination of a Punjabi Kudi from Tamil Nadu :-) Shweta is a sweetheart , muaaaaaaaah..
Mehul aka Khaman Dhokla:-): Meuuuuuuuuuuuuuul. The gujju boy and the PET of the whole group. He hardly talks but when he does master pieces like the “ROOBARUU” song he sang in radio class are created!!He is extremely soft spoken and even when he is angry, he can’t show it on his face....He was teaching us Garba in the studio:-)
Tripti Modi aka the innocent face but not so inncocent deeds :-): Quiet, soft spoken, cute, timid, sweet, etc is what people think she is!!BUT, people you have been deceived by that innocent face, this lady is LOUD, Rebellious, Naughty and wants to have fun all the time! She has the weirdest of ideas which if I reveal no one on the face of earth will believe is true! She is one of the few people I’m close to here. An absolutely adorable thing, she’s my pup’s pup and hence we are family so that extra love!!Trips, love u, muaaaaaaaaaaaah :-)
Ahimsa: Duh, thats her name I'm not making it up!!!!That was my expression when I first heard her name!!!But, as the LEGENDARY Shakespeare said, "Whats in a name", she is a living example of mismatch...She is not Ahimsik in ne of her acts:-)
But, Ahimsa is sweet and this tiny thing trying to put across her point till she is heard!!This Bihar ki chori has a strong will and is here to make her Laloo proud of her!!:-) Hard core journo, always ready with questions and doubts!! All in all sweet to be
Sridutt aka the DEDICATED techie boy, wannabe Filmamker:-): He knows what he is here for!!One of my closest friends here. I absolutely adore him for being so patient and focussed.. He is the best company one can have and I’m really gonna miss not having him around all the time :-). He is extremely good at his stuff and never makes fake promises. He is someone I look upto for the clarity of thought he has. Sri, looking forward to a rocking Footprints.. N thanks for helping me out all those times u did :-) Rockstar!!
After jotting down about the group in points and highlighting the names, I think I have taken UKC sir a lil too seriously!!Well, I have had awesome 3 months here, and these people have been a part of it and so thanks to each one of u for being what you are :-) Haven’t been able to justify how I feel because of lack of time:-) and nearing exam..No attempt to offend anyone, if anything I said has offended anyone, m sorry:-) love u guys, C4 ROXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX:-)
Happy:-) and sad:-(
Happy cuz m done with semester of hard work( Literally hard cuz i have completed close to 30 assignments successfully!) N sad, cuz m gonna miss a couple of people who will not be in my class nomore cuz we will be segregated according to our specializations..
But I’d dedicate this blog to those other 13 people from my batch I spent my last 3 months with very closely...
Well, we were divided into batches A, B, C, D when we joined SIMC and then further subdivided into 4 sub groups and I was allocated group C4.Frankly, back then it hardly made very little difference cause I knew no one. But, a week later, I began having issues because I personally thought the group was a mix of “Lallus” and the “I am the Boss” crowd. I was trying to fit in!! But, trust me you, this group is the best to have happened to me in 3 months here. Its like ur at home when its just the 14 of us..An absolutely crazy group, fights and has issues but at the end of it all is so bonded and open!!
I shall take the privilege of introducing the people to you:
Namrata Parekh aka DoubtFire: Hahahahahahaha, this woman made me pull my hair and hit my head on the walls when I first met her!! We, were given a radio assignment(GROUP) and madame happens to be an RJ(Big Ppl) and hence tried to have her say and suppress everyone else (though Nishant and Varun dint let her, hhehehehehehe). But, thats beside the point, she came across as this gal who wants to make her presence felt and I couldn’t quite stand her (Sorry for this:-)). This impression actually continued for a while. But, she turned out to be sweet and nice (Thanx to my “I don’t judge people" attitude). She is basically this overgrown kid who thinks she knows all and has to be heard!! Never lets ne1 sleep in the class cuz of her questions. There was always some or the other person she pissed, without realising!! But, of what I have known her, she is absolutely harmless and will help you whenever you need someone!!She has a dysfunctional funny bone and NAMRATA, u better treat C4 for bearing all those jokes of urs and then for EVEN laughing to make u feel good:-)
She is a sweetheart and my MAMMA PUP!!Miss gujju, I will miss u and all those love and hate sessions v’ve had :-)
Sneha Padiyath aka the Hardworker: Hmmm, Hardcore Journo!!She was the only gal in the group I knew and liked initially. One thing I admire her for his her FOCUS and dedication. She is fun and bubbly and oozing with excitement all the time. She has to know everything and makes sure she does. But, I can’t not mention her 70’s Hairbands I almost fell in love with, ROTFL(Pls don’t kill me for this)..When u try to sleep in the class and look ahead if the teacher is looking at u, all u can see is Sneha’s Hairband:-), though she looks very cute in them..
Category: Workoholic. She ensures all her assignments are done well. Sneha, I remember made this presentation in MRM class on “Women in Journalism” and quoting her “It was like she was spraying Sleeping Gas........... With each slide, one head down” was hilarious!! But trust me if I was awake I’d have loved the presentation..
She is one of the people I’m gonna genuinely miss not having in the class :-)
She is this friend I love teasing and pulling her leg..A fun person to hang out with and she has all the garam garam NEWS all the time. Way to go journo!!!!N m sorry if I hurt u in ne of those leg pulling attempts :-)
Faisal aka Dawood: This man was the ENTERTAINMENT package of C4 and people bid for him but couldn’t take him away from our batch. A typical Faisal, nevr let any of us complete the assignments because he HAD to have that world class chai after the class got over and hence refused to wait for one extra minute. His accent, for which he was acknowledged by Ananya Sir, got onto the batches nerve. But, the best part about him is, he never makes an attempt to be someone else! N thats what I admire him for. He took all our jokes in the right spirit and was a sport. He has been a sweetheart to all of us, though a lil irritating at times, he is FuN nevertheless. He can get you into trouble (BizComm Group Presentation ) and be your saviour (Biz Comm Individual presentation where I used his accent to hide my inability to talk clearly because of ulcers on my toungeJ). Faijal as I call him, is the best entertainer I have ever come across:-) I will definitely miss Faijal and his Saudi class questions:-) (As against the world class questions ppl in my class ask)
Faijal papa u rock :-)
Nishant Roy Bombarde oops Shah: His name was never spelt correctly (even now isn’t)Father Of Photoshop as we termed him!! This dude’s like a 4 year who goes to nursery and has already been taught alphabets and numbers at home..He knows most of the softwares, photography, electronic media, I wonder what he’s doing here then:-) But,a sweet guy with the KILLER combo of being a GUJJU brought up in TAMIL NADU;-)
Very focussed and all he talks about is Advertising, Advertising, Advertising and more of it..Milinda mam’s pet..Comes across as a sweet, harmless, I do my work guy. N ya, not to forget, Nishant sang “Twinkle Twinkle Lil Star” in the radio class and later he was diagonised with temperature!!:-).This one’s the typical TENSION PARTY..
The Shahrukh Khan “Baazigar” hairstyle, lean and tall with hair covering most of his face! Teetotaller, I wonder what he is doing in life. Sweet guy to hang out with. When it comes to work he is all for it and very focussed and believes in giving 100%.
Varun Ravindran aka the Sheep:-): Varun is this cute thing of our group who sings for us and dances and does the SHEEP DANCE exclusively for C4:-) He is the typical film guy and is interested in all the practicals that happen. The energy and encouragement dose for the group. He is an absolute sweetheart and tries to keep all happy. Extremely funny.
Megha Bhat aka the khakro ni ghagro: I call her Khakra Ghagra..Quiet, sweet, soft spoken and the typical “Guys mum will like” gal. She is Ok with everything and doesn’t get involved in any of the group arguments. An aspiring filmmaker..:-)Gujju gal and extremely emotional.. Peaceful and knows her stuff right!!
Niharika Kalra: KARLA..The one woman always tries to boss around(Karla, this is after common consensus and not an individual opinion :-))!!Not like any of us let her do it :-) She is the fun element of the group!! Always out with something or the other. Her confrontations with Faijal are more interesting than Cricket World Cup finals between India and Pakistan :-)
This confused soul is here for Journalsim and after comig here, her inner light is switched on and she wants to do Audio Visual Production now:-) Her new found love for camera, mics & electronic equipment are her reasons to be there. Extremely expressive, loud and on ur face. Miss Karla is of the category, Love me or Hate me, U can’t ignore me!! Punjabi from Sindh and Pune and Andamans and Vizag and Bombay and....
She is FUN and GAME for nething netime. She has some guts man!!
Neha Kejriwal: Chojen?? Nehhhh, She’s my PUP!! Cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee is the only word i can use to describe her. She is like a kid who when gets angry sits away from the group and stops talking to all of us and when no one notices, she comes back and tells us all “People I am angry with all of u all”. She is our Model for photography, video, radio, the volunteer for everything..She a sport and gets angry at the drop of a pin and is as easily convinced. My Pup is the sweetest thing around:-) Muaaaaaaaaaaah
Shweta Bathija aka the WHITEYYYYY!!: BATHIJA!!!!!My new found best friend :-) She is the best guest one can ever have :-) She is fun. She is unfortunately suffering from severe lack of Melanin:-) and hence is extraordinarily fair! She is this person who can never shout at anyone or be rude to anyone(I learnt this recently)! She is very good with her work. Creative and constructive, always has ideas and suggestions for the team :-) The deadly combination of a Punjabi Kudi from Tamil Nadu :-) Shweta is a sweetheart , muaaaaaaaah..
Mehul aka Khaman Dhokla:-): Meuuuuuuuuuuuuuul. The gujju boy and the PET of the whole group. He hardly talks but when he does master pieces like the “ROOBARUU” song he sang in radio class are created!!He is extremely soft spoken and even when he is angry, he can’t show it on his face....He was teaching us Garba in the studio:-)
Tripti Modi aka the innocent face but not so inncocent deeds :-): Quiet, soft spoken, cute, timid, sweet, etc is what people think she is!!BUT, people you have been deceived by that innocent face, this lady is LOUD, Rebellious, Naughty and wants to have fun all the time! She has the weirdest of ideas which if I reveal no one on the face of earth will believe is true! She is one of the few people I’m close to here. An absolutely adorable thing, she’s my pup’s pup and hence we are family so that extra love!!Trips, love u, muaaaaaaaaaaaah :-)
Ahimsa: Duh, thats her name I'm not making it up!!!!That was my expression when I first heard her name!!!But, as the LEGENDARY Shakespeare said, "Whats in a name", she is a living example of mismatch...She is not Ahimsik in ne of her acts:-)
But, Ahimsa is sweet and this tiny thing trying to put across her point till she is heard!!This Bihar ki chori has a strong will and is here to make her Laloo proud of her!!:-) Hard core journo, always ready with questions and doubts!! All in all sweet to be
Sridutt aka the DEDICATED techie boy, wannabe Filmamker:-): He knows what he is here for!!One of my closest friends here. I absolutely adore him for being so patient and focussed.. He is the best company one can have and I’m really gonna miss not having him around all the time :-). He is extremely good at his stuff and never makes fake promises. He is someone I look upto for the clarity of thought he has. Sri, looking forward to a rocking Footprints.. N thanks for helping me out all those times u did :-) Rockstar!!
After jotting down about the group in points and highlighting the names, I think I have taken UKC sir a lil too seriously!!Well, I have had awesome 3 months here, and these people have been a part of it and so thanks to each one of u for being what you are :-) Haven’t been able to justify how I feel because of lack of time:-) and nearing exam..No attempt to offend anyone, if anything I said has offended anyone, m sorry:-) love u guys, C4 ROXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX:-)
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Lost Friend :-(
-Chiller/Killer Attitude
-Drugs
-Beaches
-Trance
-Rave
-Bagpacker
-Music Maniac
-Rock & Roll
-Jim Morrison
-Booze
-Rolling Joints
-Fun
-Rockstar......
All of this reminds me of someone so close to me!!Or rather someone who was so close to me!!Well, its been a while I spoke to him, an year or more than that!!!!!!But whats making me write about him now??????Cuz, DUH, m missing him...... N well, for once in life, m guilty of my behaviour..
Hmmm, sounds vague???????Well, this real sweet friend of mine suddenly stopped talking to me accusing me of being fake and unreal infront of others...N my petty ego didn't really let me find out the actual reason and I walked out, walked out of the beautiful relationship we shared..My friend who was there for me always was gone, gone with the wind...just like that, and I couldn't do anything about it!!
I din't apologise ,neither did I bother to confront him to solve the issue for a long time.And attempts after that were all in vain:-(
Life waits for none, and mine dint either...It went on and I thot of my rockstar once in a while but did not do anything more...Offlate, have been missing him in every little thing I do!! For the first time, I'm feeling guilty, bad and dejected..Fot the first time,I wanna undo all and get back with my friend:-(
But I can't, cuz he refuses to talk at all....N it makes me feel miserable:-(
Kr......, miss u my rockstar...Just want u to know, ur the sweetest friend ever happened to me and that I'm sorry for whatever has hurt you so much so that u refuse to talk now.....I regret having behaved the way I did....Missssssssssss you :-(
-Drugs
-Beaches
-Trance
-Rave
-Bagpacker
-Music Maniac
-Rock & Roll
-Jim Morrison
-Booze
-Rolling Joints
-Fun
-Rockstar......
All of this reminds me of someone so close to me!!Or rather someone who was so close to me!!Well, its been a while I spoke to him, an year or more than that!!!!!!But whats making me write about him now??????Cuz, DUH, m missing him...... N well, for once in life, m guilty of my behaviour..
Hmmm, sounds vague???????Well, this real sweet friend of mine suddenly stopped talking to me accusing me of being fake and unreal infront of others...N my petty ego didn't really let me find out the actual reason and I walked out, walked out of the beautiful relationship we shared..My friend who was there for me always was gone, gone with the wind...just like that, and I couldn't do anything about it!!
I din't apologise ,neither did I bother to confront him to solve the issue for a long time.And attempts after that were all in vain:-(
Life waits for none, and mine dint either...It went on and I thot of my rockstar once in a while but did not do anything more...Offlate, have been missing him in every little thing I do!! For the first time, I'm feeling guilty, bad and dejected..Fot the first time,I wanna undo all and get back with my friend:-(
But I can't, cuz he refuses to talk at all....N it makes me feel miserable:-(
Kr......, miss u my rockstar...Just want u to know, ur the sweetest friend ever happened to me and that I'm sorry for whatever has hurt you so much so that u refuse to talk now.....I regret having behaved the way I did....Missssssssssss you :-(
Thursday, September 4, 2008
It’s my b’day tomorrow..N I hate to face this day.. My birthday every year is an event and something I look forward to for over a month. Its like this national event people around me celebrate..
N today here I sit all alone in my room on top of a hill far far away from civilization, crying to face this day..The same day which was the most important day of my life has become the most scariest day.. How I wish there tomorrow’d be skipped and when I get up in the morning its 6th. Awwwww, I don’t like this feeling. It’s depressing me even more!! Noone I love is around me!! Noone who cares for me is here.. And most importantly, have chosen not to be!! How I hate this feeling… I wish there was some way I could come do something about it.
N today here I sit all alone in my room on top of a hill far far away from civilization, crying to face this day..The same day which was the most important day of my life has become the most scariest day.. How I wish there tomorrow’d be skipped and when I get up in the morning its 6th. Awwwww, I don’t like this feeling. It’s depressing me even more!! Noone I love is around me!! Noone who cares for me is here.. And most importantly, have chosen not to be!! How I hate this feeling… I wish there was some way I could come do something about it.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Hibernating!!!!!!!!!
Its been quite sometime I wrote something......
But so much has happened in the last few days!!Good and bad :-) :-(
Well, quit MindTree, went to Indore and met up with all my relatives, had fun and good family time, hmmmm bad news ofcourse is that i was suffering from chicken pox and it took real real long time to heal.
Was so excited about my new life (College life), but projec has been assigned even before i've joined!Not like thats brought down the excitement but yes the fun part......
College starts 5th july(Ya for all those ppl who din't know, I'm joining Symbiosis Institute of Media and Communication for my masters ;-) ).....
I miss bangalore, those parties, office gossip, trek, salsa, everything!!!!!Man I miss all my friends....
There's so much I wanna write but I guess I'll leave it here!!!!!!
Will hopefully get back soon!!
But so much has happened in the last few days!!Good and bad :-) :-(
Well, quit MindTree, went to Indore and met up with all my relatives, had fun and good family time, hmmmm bad news ofcourse is that i was suffering from chicken pox and it took real real long time to heal.
Was so excited about my new life (College life), but projec has been assigned even before i've joined!Not like thats brought down the excitement but yes the fun part......
College starts 5th july(Ya for all those ppl who din't know, I'm joining Symbiosis Institute of Media and Communication for my masters ;-) ).....
I miss bangalore, those parties, office gossip, trek, salsa, everything!!!!!Man I miss all my friends....
There's so much I wanna write but I guess I'll leave it here!!!!!!
Will hopefully get back soon!!
Thursday, May 8, 2008
ADIOS MINDTREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This one's gonna be big(Next Post)....
I'm falling short of words right now....
But here's a big thanks to everyone at Mindtree.Thanks for all the love and affection!! So much have I learnt here...I'll cherish the memory of this beautiful place..........
Mindtree truely ROCKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
I'm falling short of words right now....
But here's a big thanks to everyone at Mindtree.Thanks for all the love and affection!! So much have I learnt here...I'll cherish the memory of this beautiful place..........
Mindtree truely ROCKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Noone Loves me, Noone cares for me :-(
Was reading a blog about author not being perfectionist and the next day I get a letter from my best friend. That’s when I decided to write this blog, though quite similar to the other blogger’s pattern, the ideas and feelings are absolutely mine.
Well, it’s been a while, actually from the time I started working, I feel no one really cares for me, no one loves me no more! At times, when I’m alone and I want to talk to someone, I don’t know who from the 498 contacts in my phone I should call! There’s not one person I can call without thinking twice. Haven’t mentioned it to anyone but I just feel so low at times! But, I have only hurt all those people who love me and care for me, so why should they bother anyway?
I haven’t been able to live up to my parent’s expectations:
· I dirty my room each day (when at home) and expect mom to clean it for me!
· I argue with Dad about anything and everything just because I wanna be heard!
· I yell at Mom if any of my things are missing when I go home.
· I hardly call them up.
· My only conversations with Dad off late have been when I wanted money.
· I hardly spend time with them when I go home.
· I avoid discussing my future with them.
· I blame Mom for everything that’s not falling in place.
· I don’t entertain the guests at home, something ‘m expected to do!!
But, Dad-Mom, I love you and I feel miserable after behaving like that. Every time I fall, I realize you are the only people who are standing two steps behind to hold me! I’m Sorry for everything…..
I have been a problem some sibling L :
· I call him when I’m feeling low and sad. But, I’m never there when he needs me.
· I crib, cry, yell every time and bother him for hours.. But I never spend time listening to him.
· I over react each time he advices me about my life, career!
· I do the opposite of what he asks me to.
· I look up to him and talk about him to the whole world, but I show him like I really don’t bother!
· I fight with him, hurt him.
· I can’t still believe I took him out shopping with his broken hand and bruised leg!
· I piss him to no end and take him for granted.
· I never tell him about all my happy days, but if I’ve had a bad day, I call him and make sure he’s there to console me!
· I spend his money like water, without realizing how hard he works for every penny!
Bro, you are the one person I live and die for, in the TRUEST sense. At times, I do act weird and cocky, but I love you no matter what! I keep my ego above you, I’m trying to change. I don’t intend to hurt u! It just happens. Please forgive me. I’m not perfect.
I have been such a bad Friend:
· I talk but hardly listen.
· I argue for everything and more often than not, for no reason.
· I throw my tantrums anywhere, anytime and they are there.
· I love them so much but never tell them that I do.
· I put my price each time.
· I want everyone to agree and be friends again the first time I apologize, while they have to beg and be nice and sweet to me for 2-3 days.
· I want things “MY WAY” always!
· I can never take jokes in the right spirit but expect them to!
· I just bother them all so much and they’re still there for me.
· I’m unreasonable, unrealistic and demanding.
· I hate sharing my friends.
And this list is endless….
But guys, yes all of you, you’ve become an integral part of my life. I know, I’ve never made a good friend but I’m trying. I’m sorry for all those times I’ve hurt you. I hope you guys are gonna be there for me every time I need you like ALWAYS!! Love you ALL…….
Please understand, I’m not perfect.. I’m trying to be better but I need your love and care for that….
Well, it’s been a while, actually from the time I started working, I feel no one really cares for me, no one loves me no more! At times, when I’m alone and I want to talk to someone, I don’t know who from the 498 contacts in my phone I should call! There’s not one person I can call without thinking twice. Haven’t mentioned it to anyone but I just feel so low at times! But, I have only hurt all those people who love me and care for me, so why should they bother anyway?
I haven’t been able to live up to my parent’s expectations:
· I dirty my room each day (when at home) and expect mom to clean it for me!
· I argue with Dad about anything and everything just because I wanna be heard!
· I yell at Mom if any of my things are missing when I go home.
· I hardly call them up.
· My only conversations with Dad off late have been when I wanted money.
· I hardly spend time with them when I go home.
· I avoid discussing my future with them.
· I blame Mom for everything that’s not falling in place.
· I don’t entertain the guests at home, something ‘m expected to do!!
But, Dad-Mom, I love you and I feel miserable after behaving like that. Every time I fall, I realize you are the only people who are standing two steps behind to hold me! I’m Sorry for everything…..
I have been a problem some sibling L :
· I call him when I’m feeling low and sad. But, I’m never there when he needs me.
· I crib, cry, yell every time and bother him for hours.. But I never spend time listening to him.
· I over react each time he advices me about my life, career!
· I do the opposite of what he asks me to.
· I look up to him and talk about him to the whole world, but I show him like I really don’t bother!
· I fight with him, hurt him.
· I can’t still believe I took him out shopping with his broken hand and bruised leg!
· I piss him to no end and take him for granted.
· I never tell him about all my happy days, but if I’ve had a bad day, I call him and make sure he’s there to console me!
· I spend his money like water, without realizing how hard he works for every penny!
Bro, you are the one person I live and die for, in the TRUEST sense. At times, I do act weird and cocky, but I love you no matter what! I keep my ego above you, I’m trying to change. I don’t intend to hurt u! It just happens. Please forgive me. I’m not perfect.
I have been such a bad Friend:
· I talk but hardly listen.
· I argue for everything and more often than not, for no reason.
· I throw my tantrums anywhere, anytime and they are there.
· I love them so much but never tell them that I do.
· I put my price each time.
· I want everyone to agree and be friends again the first time I apologize, while they have to beg and be nice and sweet to me for 2-3 days.
· I want things “MY WAY” always!
· I can never take jokes in the right spirit but expect them to!
· I just bother them all so much and they’re still there for me.
· I’m unreasonable, unrealistic and demanding.
· I hate sharing my friends.
And this list is endless….
But guys, yes all of you, you’ve become an integral part of my life. I know, I’ve never made a good friend but I’m trying. I’m sorry for all those times I’ve hurt you. I hope you guys are gonna be there for me every time I need you like ALWAYS!! Love you ALL…….
Please understand, I’m not perfect.. I’m trying to be better but I need your love and care for that….
Monday, April 28, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Male Chauvinist Pigs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
“Men are all Pigs”, said I.
“Cuz most women are dumb”, replied ma friend immediately!
This was with reference to some remark he made about someone. Well, I pounced on him arguing about why we are not dumb and more intelligent than men! I began citing examples of our intelligence and the fact proving men being Chauvinists and rude and cheap and what not!
And, this friend of mine is proud to claim that he is an MCP and all of those who know me also know how strong a feminist I am. So the discussion was in vain as both of us refused to agree with the other. And then someone interrupted to change the topic which is a common scene every time we meet.
But, I sat back and thought about a lot of things related to our discussions. I was wondering if men enjoy being called Chauvinists! Is it like a status symbol, “Like you know I have a girl friend, Like you know I’m an MCP and proud to be one???????”
Is that how they try to prove they are more superior? Or is it a way of showing strength?
I keep wondering, why is it that men seeking to bond and avoid potential conflict, endless talk of women has always been the coin of the realm? In this discourse, of course, women are routinely “OBJECTIFIED”. While often restrained in the presence of the opposite sex, amongst themselves men giggle and leer over women who live up to some social standard of sex appeal, or the opposite of it.
It’s so easy for a guy to say, that girl is such a bitch!! She is this and that, she does this and that?? How much ever we talk about women equality, 21st century world and things of the like, fact still remains, “it’s a man’s world”! Holds true at least in India.
The other day, one of my friends was telling me how a man slapped his wife on the airport and created a scene. When an educated man doesn’t know how to respect women, I’m sorry but he doesn’t even have the rights to be called civilized!!
There is nothing that the MCP’s loathe more than ball-busting women, as they perceive them. It’s the insecurity that they might be overtaken by their opposite sex. It’s the mental block that each individual builds in a period of time. I don’t completely blame the individuals; it’s more to do with the society! Why is it still true that people give birth until there’s a boy child born? (I don’t say it happens everywhere but yes, it’s still prevalent!). Why is it still true that people are not very serious about a girl’s professional career? Why is it that one’s guy friends don’t want the gal to be a part of the sports team because they think they’re gonna loose? Why is it that a gal is asked to shut up when two guys are talking or discussing? Why is it that guys think we are weak with General Knowledge?
An article titled The Hillary haters” published recently underscored this fact. Those men who were there to attack Hillary could not really explain to the article’s author why they felt so angry about her. More often than not, men (read MCP’s, not all u nice guys who respect women), don’t even know why they are doing it.
What’s so great about being a man? That you don’t have to face all the hardships we need to!! Or that you don’t have to be scared about any time of the day?
Well, I find no reason why a man has to misbehave or ill-treat a gal just because she is a gal! This blog came up also cuz I witnessed an incident that shouldn’t have happened! But, the point ‘m trying to make here is, feel superior for what u have done or achieved, not because you are born as a male!!
PS: No offence meant to any particular individual or sex, but to the mentality!
“Cuz most women are dumb”, replied ma friend immediately!
This was with reference to some remark he made about someone. Well, I pounced on him arguing about why we are not dumb and more intelligent than men! I began citing examples of our intelligence and the fact proving men being Chauvinists and rude and cheap and what not!
And, this friend of mine is proud to claim that he is an MCP and all of those who know me also know how strong a feminist I am. So the discussion was in vain as both of us refused to agree with the other. And then someone interrupted to change the topic which is a common scene every time we meet.
But, I sat back and thought about a lot of things related to our discussions. I was wondering if men enjoy being called Chauvinists! Is it like a status symbol, “Like you know I have a girl friend, Like you know I’m an MCP and proud to be one???????”
Is that how they try to prove they are more superior? Or is it a way of showing strength?
I keep wondering, why is it that men seeking to bond and avoid potential conflict, endless talk of women has always been the coin of the realm? In this discourse, of course, women are routinely “OBJECTIFIED”. While often restrained in the presence of the opposite sex, amongst themselves men giggle and leer over women who live up to some social standard of sex appeal, or the opposite of it.
It’s so easy for a guy to say, that girl is such a bitch!! She is this and that, she does this and that?? How much ever we talk about women equality, 21st century world and things of the like, fact still remains, “it’s a man’s world”! Holds true at least in India.
The other day, one of my friends was telling me how a man slapped his wife on the airport and created a scene. When an educated man doesn’t know how to respect women, I’m sorry but he doesn’t even have the rights to be called civilized!!
There is nothing that the MCP’s loathe more than ball-busting women, as they perceive them. It’s the insecurity that they might be overtaken by their opposite sex. It’s the mental block that each individual builds in a period of time. I don’t completely blame the individuals; it’s more to do with the society! Why is it still true that people give birth until there’s a boy child born? (I don’t say it happens everywhere but yes, it’s still prevalent!). Why is it still true that people are not very serious about a girl’s professional career? Why is it that one’s guy friends don’t want the gal to be a part of the sports team because they think they’re gonna loose? Why is it that a gal is asked to shut up when two guys are talking or discussing? Why is it that guys think we are weak with General Knowledge?
An article titled The Hillary haters” published recently underscored this fact. Those men who were there to attack Hillary could not really explain to the article’s author why they felt so angry about her. More often than not, men (read MCP’s, not all u nice guys who respect women), don’t even know why they are doing it.
What’s so great about being a man? That you don’t have to face all the hardships we need to!! Or that you don’t have to be scared about any time of the day?
Well, I find no reason why a man has to misbehave or ill-treat a gal just because she is a gal! This blog came up also cuz I witnessed an incident that shouldn’t have happened! But, the point ‘m trying to make here is, feel superior for what u have done or achieved, not because you are born as a male!!
PS: No offence meant to any particular individual or sex, but to the mentality!
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Monday, February 11, 2008
MindTree Mini Marathon'08!!!!!!!!!!!
“Its not about how far you can run, its how far you can push yourself…”
~ An ancient Greek Saying
It is rather odd, that with all the major modes of transport in this world, man today has converted his most primal mode of movement, walking or running, into an exercise. I for one, have always preferred to be on a two or a four wheeler, than running around for something or the other. Or rather, this preference was something that was an integral part of me, till sometime back.
The meeting on the first day, for the MindTree Mini Marathon was a revelation in itself. How difficult can it be to organize a marathon, was the thought that was running through my mind over and over again. For one, I didn’t see the reason why so many people were required to pull of something I considered so very minor. I was in for a surprise.
The MindTree Mini Marathon had practically nothing mini about it. Its mini nature was thwarted by the great deal of preparation it took to get it in place. For one, the marathon was not being run on a straight track, and hence required constant monitoring to ensure that us, otherwise hard working honest people, wouldn’t take the shorter route to victory.
My ideas took a serious beating when I realized that it would take several meetings to ensure that the event took off without any hitches or glitches. Strategies were made, plans were worked on and groups in charge of various different activities were done. Murthy, with utmost care and diligence worked out various issues and circumstances which would ensure that nothing went wrong on d-day.
Discussions often took rude turns with all of womankind at MindTree protesting about why the marathon was made shorter for them. After all, us women can do anything men can do, so why give us the easier task? A good thought taken as an insult ? I don’t know, but yes, as a woman myself, I don’t see why I shouldn’t run as much as anyone else. Interesting solutions were worked out for problems, which at moments seemed unsolvable. For example, when Tanglin Developments disallowed us from putting up posters on campus, we were in a fix about how one would show the participants the so planned track, atleast for the first time around, till someone came up with the ingenious idea of getting a bike to show the way for the first lap!
When d-day arrived we organizers made it a point to be there on campus at 6:30 and as sharp as expected, everyone one of us, was there, ready to work things out at the earliest. The marathon was a grand success, people ran their hearts out, and for a moment, I just stood there wondering whether I was lucky to be organizing this thing, or would I have been luckier running this marathon.
At the fag end of the whole thing, all the success had put the whole team on a high, but the big task remained, the wrap up was still left. We spent the rest of our time, till afternoon picking up bottles from al over the campus and restoring MindTree to its pristine self. The MMMC ( MindTree Mini Marathon Committee), which was what I prefer to call us organizers went out for a nice lunch. A job well done, a project well executed.
The appreciation we got the following day was the icing on the cake. With people like Puneet, Partha and Jagan appreciating our efforts and many a MindTree minds walking up to us and telling us what a good job we had done, what more could one want. My ideas shattered and a new one place, I now realize the importance of this run. Its more than just a way to exercise, a marathon, mini or maxi, is where we can push ourselves to achieve more than what we have in the past. I so sincerely hope, that this remains a fixture in MindTree for many years to come, to encourage people across all sections to come together and run for their lives !!
~ An ancient Greek Saying
It is rather odd, that with all the major modes of transport in this world, man today has converted his most primal mode of movement, walking or running, into an exercise. I for one, have always preferred to be on a two or a four wheeler, than running around for something or the other. Or rather, this preference was something that was an integral part of me, till sometime back.
The meeting on the first day, for the MindTree Mini Marathon was a revelation in itself. How difficult can it be to organize a marathon, was the thought that was running through my mind over and over again. For one, I didn’t see the reason why so many people were required to pull of something I considered so very minor. I was in for a surprise.
The MindTree Mini Marathon had practically nothing mini about it. Its mini nature was thwarted by the great deal of preparation it took to get it in place. For one, the marathon was not being run on a straight track, and hence required constant monitoring to ensure that us, otherwise hard working honest people, wouldn’t take the shorter route to victory.
My ideas took a serious beating when I realized that it would take several meetings to ensure that the event took off without any hitches or glitches. Strategies were made, plans were worked on and groups in charge of various different activities were done. Murthy, with utmost care and diligence worked out various issues and circumstances which would ensure that nothing went wrong on d-day.
Discussions often took rude turns with all of womankind at MindTree protesting about why the marathon was made shorter for them. After all, us women can do anything men can do, so why give us the easier task? A good thought taken as an insult ? I don’t know, but yes, as a woman myself, I don’t see why I shouldn’t run as much as anyone else. Interesting solutions were worked out for problems, which at moments seemed unsolvable. For example, when Tanglin Developments disallowed us from putting up posters on campus, we were in a fix about how one would show the participants the so planned track, atleast for the first time around, till someone came up with the ingenious idea of getting a bike to show the way for the first lap!
When d-day arrived we organizers made it a point to be there on campus at 6:30 and as sharp as expected, everyone one of us, was there, ready to work things out at the earliest. The marathon was a grand success, people ran their hearts out, and for a moment, I just stood there wondering whether I was lucky to be organizing this thing, or would I have been luckier running this marathon.
At the fag end of the whole thing, all the success had put the whole team on a high, but the big task remained, the wrap up was still left. We spent the rest of our time, till afternoon picking up bottles from al over the campus and restoring MindTree to its pristine self. The MMMC ( MindTree Mini Marathon Committee), which was what I prefer to call us organizers went out for a nice lunch. A job well done, a project well executed.
The appreciation we got the following day was the icing on the cake. With people like Puneet, Partha and Jagan appreciating our efforts and many a MindTree minds walking up to us and telling us what a good job we had done, what more could one want. My ideas shattered and a new one place, I now realize the importance of this run. Its more than just a way to exercise, a marathon, mini or maxi, is where we can push ourselves to achieve more than what we have in the past. I so sincerely hope, that this remains a fixture in MindTree for many years to come, to encourage people across all sections to come together and run for their lives !!
Thursday, February 7, 2008
.NET Panic
Came back to the class after a "Strong cuppa coffee"...
"Aditi, the midterm results are out shouted my neighbor, check how much you scored?”
To it I replied, "Hey take a chill, it’s just an assessment to check how good the tutor is!”
(N meanwhile I was logging in to my web mail)...
Ouch!!!!!!!!!Shouted me! I have scored in 40's!!And then laughed my neighbor, "I told you its not your cuppa"(.NET she meant)...
There was a chaos in the class, everyone running around to find who scored how much?
And believe me no one asked me, cuz they all thought I was dumb. (Thanks to my super intelligent tutor and my 'I don't no nothin about .NET' attitude).That evening was probably the weakest I’d ever felt! I thought I’d lost all in life. I’d never scored so low in my entire life. And the icing was people coming over and rubbing it on REAL HARD...
Now when I think of that day I don't blame no one. We Indians are brought up in an environment where scoring more than the neighbors’ chintu is more important than the child's emotional satisfaction(families can go on cold war if I score lesser or vice versa, either which ways they go on a war)..
Getting back to my status after the midterm results,
The in charge called us for a meeting the next day and made us realize how worthless we were and how unaffected the company would be if we were thrown out (they were indicating our exit if we din clear the final and deciding assessment)
It just hit me so hard. The heart began acting emotional (N I had to rushed to the loo) the mind yelled “Be practical”!! They tried their level best not to be in sync. I was in such a fix. Being rational looked hazy to me in the washroom mirror!! Silence within me was killing me. Agitation and Irritation were haunting.
I just kept to myself that entire day and went back home.
It was time of reckoning again, with my final exam a week and a half away.
Neared the EXAM time and I start getting anxious and spend sleepless nights. The thought that often lingers in my mind is that, is the examination which tests the true ability and the knowledge of the person? Does it in any way show how much the person has command over the subject? The answering of these questions will lead me into the never ending debate with my conscience. And then its all the more tough when I come from engineering background where I used to get my books a day or two before the exam(I'm sure all the engineers will agree with me on this one, at least the true eng;-)) and I used to still clear.
I am of the opinion that examination on the whole should be banned. Since examinations do not test the true ability of the person. Why should a person prove himself or for the matter of fact herself by the medium of examinations??
Anyway, the officials conducting the exam thought otherwise:-(
N hence I worked worked and worked like a dog! Left no stone unturned. I sat in office till 9 each day, went to a friends place each weekend to understand the tough topics. People around me were concerned(I mean the one's who cared viz. Mom, Sudha mam, Krishnan, Adity) about my behavior. I kept to myself and those were the only days I didn’t go to the House of Joy (and hence lost the trophy later ;-)) and didn’t have lunch with Adity.
As the days neared I stopped taking calls from home(My folks are way too sentimental about me and the whole .net panic had taken on them, they told me to quit and stay at home peacefully!!)
The "D" day arrived and I did my objective well in the first half. Then was the coding assessment after lunch. Gas agency design was my job. I did it really well.
But, ppl!!
It wasn't anything lesser than a Farah khan movie climax..
The authorities came to us and told us 3 days later that our codes looked similar and seemed like a replica of the tutor’s code. Hence we would have to take another assessment all together.
Can things go worse????????????????
But, surprisingly, it was cooler and better this time. I wasn't nervous, neither scared. I'd given up on being stressed. I went to celebrate the New Year despite the exam day after!
We came to office all set like the Spartans in 300.But!!!!!!!!!!!Again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We were divided into a group of 60 each and sent to different offices of MT and different systems without network connections!!Beat that folks!!
New problem statement, Comp's on my left and right left unoccupied.
I did all that I could. Didn’t discuss about the exam at all and went and slept. Told everyone including parents I was cool and not bothered about the result. But the only thing in my mind was What if I don't clear and they chuck me? What about the humiliation? I'll never be able to talk to the friends I made here? N blah and blah...
And then the cultural day came up and I was occupied in the preparations.
Can my life be any peaceful people?
My results came just 10 minutes before I was to go to the stage and compare.
But curiosity kills . I couldn't wait. I went and checked my results.
I screamed and jumped. I had cleared successfully!!
And all that effort didn’t go in vain..
But 1 thing that keeps haunting me ever since I was a kid is
"Do a few decimal points in marks make one child smarter than the other?"
I'm still searching for that answer.
"Aditi, the midterm results are out shouted my neighbor, check how much you scored?”
To it I replied, "Hey take a chill, it’s just an assessment to check how good the tutor is!”
(N meanwhile I was logging in to my web mail)...
Ouch!!!!!!!!!Shouted me! I have scored in 40's!!And then laughed my neighbor, "I told you its not your cuppa"(.NET she meant)...
There was a chaos in the class, everyone running around to find who scored how much?
And believe me no one asked me, cuz they all thought I was dumb. (Thanks to my super intelligent tutor and my 'I don't no nothin about .NET' attitude).That evening was probably the weakest I’d ever felt! I thought I’d lost all in life. I’d never scored so low in my entire life. And the icing was people coming over and rubbing it on REAL HARD...
Now when I think of that day I don't blame no one. We Indians are brought up in an environment where scoring more than the neighbors’ chintu is more important than the child's emotional satisfaction(families can go on cold war if I score lesser or vice versa, either which ways they go on a war)..
Getting back to my status after the midterm results,
The in charge called us for a meeting the next day and made us realize how worthless we were and how unaffected the company would be if we were thrown out (they were indicating our exit if we din clear the final and deciding assessment)
It just hit me so hard. The heart began acting emotional (N I had to rushed to the loo) the mind yelled “Be practical”!! They tried their level best not to be in sync. I was in such a fix. Being rational looked hazy to me in the washroom mirror!! Silence within me was killing me. Agitation and Irritation were haunting.
I just kept to myself that entire day and went back home.
It was time of reckoning again, with my final exam a week and a half away.
Neared the EXAM time and I start getting anxious and spend sleepless nights. The thought that often lingers in my mind is that, is the examination which tests the true ability and the knowledge of the person? Does it in any way show how much the person has command over the subject? The answering of these questions will lead me into the never ending debate with my conscience. And then its all the more tough when I come from engineering background where I used to get my books a day or two before the exam(I'm sure all the engineers will agree with me on this one, at least the true eng;-)) and I used to still clear.
I am of the opinion that examination on the whole should be banned. Since examinations do not test the true ability of the person. Why should a person prove himself or for the matter of fact herself by the medium of examinations??
Anyway, the officials conducting the exam thought otherwise:-(
N hence I worked worked and worked like a dog! Left no stone unturned. I sat in office till 9 each day, went to a friends place each weekend to understand the tough topics. People around me were concerned(I mean the one's who cared viz. Mom, Sudha mam, Krishnan, Adity) about my behavior. I kept to myself and those were the only days I didn’t go to the House of Joy (and hence lost the trophy later ;-)) and didn’t have lunch with Adity.
As the days neared I stopped taking calls from home(My folks are way too sentimental about me and the whole .net panic had taken on them, they told me to quit and stay at home peacefully!!)
The "D" day arrived and I did my objective well in the first half. Then was the coding assessment after lunch. Gas agency design was my job. I did it really well.
But, ppl!!
It wasn't anything lesser than a Farah khan movie climax..
The authorities came to us and told us 3 days later that our codes looked similar and seemed like a replica of the tutor’s code. Hence we would have to take another assessment all together.
Can things go worse????????????????
But, surprisingly, it was cooler and better this time. I wasn't nervous, neither scared. I'd given up on being stressed. I went to celebrate the New Year despite the exam day after!
We came to office all set like the Spartans in 300.But!!!!!!!!!!!Again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We were divided into a group of 60 each and sent to different offices of MT and different systems without network connections!!Beat that folks!!
New problem statement, Comp's on my left and right left unoccupied.
I did all that I could. Didn’t discuss about the exam at all and went and slept. Told everyone including parents I was cool and not bothered about the result. But the only thing in my mind was What if I don't clear and they chuck me? What about the humiliation? I'll never be able to talk to the friends I made here? N blah and blah...
And then the cultural day came up and I was occupied in the preparations.
Can my life be any peaceful people?
My results came just 10 minutes before I was to go to the stage and compare.
But curiosity kills . I couldn't wait. I went and checked my results.
I screamed and jumped. I had cleared successfully!!
And all that effort didn’t go in vain..
But 1 thing that keeps haunting me ever since I was a kid is
"Do a few decimal points in marks make one child smarter than the other?"
I'm still searching for that answer.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Oh my poor blog.....Must be feeling la an orphan..But hey, there have been loadsa things happening in life from the last post..So I shall list things out in sequence and start posting one after the other.....
Firstly, the whole .Net panic and fear(of clearing the assessments)
Then, watching taare zameen par pre exam and mom's reaction...
Also, post assessment life and fun..
Finally a brief on lotsa other things on my trip back home.........
Firstly, the whole .Net panic and fear(of clearing the assessments)
Then, watching taare zameen par pre exam and mom's reaction...
Also, post assessment life and fun..
Finally a brief on lotsa other things on my trip back home.........
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