Lost Friend :-(

-Chiller/Killer Attitude
-Drugs
-Beaches
-Trance
-Rave
-Bagpacker
-Music Maniac
-Rock & Roll
-Jim Morrison
-Booze
-Rolling Joints
-Fun
-Rockstar......
All of this reminds me of someone so close to me!!Or rather someone who was so close to me!!Well, its been a while I spoke to him, an year or more than that!!!!!!But whats making me write about him now??????Cuz, DUH, m missing him...... N well, for once in life, m guilty of my behaviour..
Hmmm, sounds vague???????Well, this real sweet friend of mine suddenly stopped talking to me accusing me of being fake and unreal infront of others...N my petty ego didn't really let me find out the actual reason and I walked out, walked out of the beautiful relationship we shared..My friend who was there for me always was gone, gone with the wind...just like that, and I couldn't do anything about it!!
I din't apologise ,neither did I bother to confront him to solve the issue for a long time.And attempts after that were all in vain:-(
Life waits for none, and mine dint either...It went on and I thot of my rockstar once in a while but did not do anything more...Offlate, have been missing him in every little thing I do!! For the first time, I'm feeling guilty, bad and dejected..Fot the first time,I wanna undo all and get back with my friend:-(
But I can't, cuz he refuses to talk at all....N it makes me feel miserable:-(
Kr......, miss u my rockstar...Just want u to know, ur the sweetest friend ever happened to me and that I'm sorry for whatever has hurt you so much so that u refuse to talk now.....I regret having behaved the way I did....Missssssssssss you :-(

It’s my b’day tomorrow..N I hate to face this day.. My birthday every year is an event and something I look forward to for over a month. Its like this national event people around me celebrate..
N today here I sit all alone in my room on top of a hill far far away from civilization, crying to face this day..The same day which was the most important day of my life has become the most scariest day.. How I wish there tomorrow’d be skipped and when I get up in the morning its 6th. Awwwww, I don’t like this feeling. It’s depressing me even more!! Noone I love is around me!! Noone who cares for me is here.. And most importantly, have chosen not to be!! How I hate this feeling… I wish there was some way I could come do something about it.