I'm ANGRY!!

I'm ANGRY because you pursued me relentlessly and told me you wanted me to be your girlfriend..
I'm ANGRY because I learned things about you through others !

I'm ANGRY because you LIED to me
I'm ANGRY because I can't tell you how angry I am

I'm ANGRY because you led me to believe you wanted a life with me
I'm ANGRY because I don't know if anything you said was ever true!

I'm ANGRY because I screwed 4 years of my life!!
I'm ANGRY that I can never believe in love..
I'm ANGRY because  I fell in love with you.

I'm ANGRY because  I tried so hard!!
I'm ANGRY because I was never so happy..
I'm ANGRY because I can't just set things right!!

I'm ANGRY because colleagues and random strangers ask me to smile!
I'm ANGRY that I believed for so long that you loved me!

I'm ANGRY because  I haven't moved on..
I'm ANGRY because I'm burning!!
I'm ANGRY because  I've killed myself crying my lungs out!

I'm ANGRY because I can NEVER EVER have an honest conversation with you!
I'm ANGRY because everything around me reminds me of you..
I'm ANGRY that I DON'T know you..

I'm ANGRY I TRUSTED YOU!!

I'm ANGRY I LOVED YOU LIKE I DID..

Why are break ups always so hard??

Its been a terribly shaky week.. Last one!!
Just a little bit of things gone wrong or a wee bit of people gone wrong (for me)..
You can't even remotely imagine the amount of clutter that there is in my head swimming and refusing to go..Its rotting my brain and every other part that thinks logically..

Dear Diary, I've been wanting to blurt all out to you so that I can have someone to share everything with!!But alas, this clutter is stuck and looks like it'll take me quite some time to get everything out!!

Afterall, its a breakup!!For gods sake, it can't be easy!! Sure not, if u put in every ounce into something for 4 years, Just for the other person to run through it !! Not when all you knew was that one person! Not when every action was to make it work.. Not when you still care for that person's well being! Not when ur on the receiving end!! Sure not when u get something u dont deserve..

I'm upset!!Yes I am.. But the fact is I have to move on.. I have to grow stronger..

and you thought you were Irreplaceable?

To the left

Mmmm to the left, to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet, that's my stuff
Yes, if I bought it, don't touch

And keep talking that mess, that’s fine
Could you walk and talk, at the same time?
And it's my name thats on that jag
So go move your bags, let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute

You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable?

So go ahead and get gone

Call up that chick, and see if shes home

Oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know
What did you think
I was putting you out for?
Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Drop the keys
Hurry up, before your taxi leaves

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you in a minute
Matter of fact, he'll be here in a minute

You must not know 'bout me
I will have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable (irreplaceable)?

So since I'm not your everything (irreplaceable)
How about I'll be nothing Nothing at all to you
I won't shed a tear for you

I won't shed a tear for you
I won't lose a wink of sleep

a wink of sleep
'Cause the truth of the matter is
Replacing you is so easy

To the left, to the left.
Mmmmm
To the left, to the left.
Everything you own in the box to the left

To the left, to the left.

You can pack all your bags we're finished

you must not know 'bout me
'Cause you made your bed now lay in it

you must not know 'bout me
I could have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable?

Let go

I want to let go.....This life and its people!!

This is more complicated than I thought!

Goa Madness

Well, most of you who know me know my craze and association with that place.. How much I love being in Goa and spend my time exploring , lazing , shopping and just chilling there..

Two weeks back when I was there I realized I know quite a lot of places and this knowledge might just help my fellow travelers who're visiting Goa for the first time and those who have been there a couple of times but limited to Baga and Calagute..

So, my attempt to pass on most of what I know.. http://goa-musing.blogspot.com/

Do visit this and write how you feel about the posts..

Lotsa Love!!